What Do You Think Of Yourself?

I got blocked on Facebook this week. 

To be fair I told the person who blocked me "Fuck you" and unfriended them first, but still, I thought it was funny that I then got blocked. 

And it's not the first time someone has blocked me after I've unfriended them. I always wonder what the point is. Is it a way of getting the last word? Is it a way of claiming some sort of power in the situation? Like if you unfriend someone you can always send a friend request later, but if they block you only they can lift the block. It makes me wonder what's going through their head when they do it. 

It made me think of when Corrie and I were driving in to Toronto a few years ago. We were going to meet people that neither of us had ever met face to face. To be fair we had only met each other face to face that day. But anyway...we were driving in to Toronto and Corrie said, "I hope everyone likes me." I laughed because I was thinking, "I hope I like everyone." 

It summed up our ways of looking at the world. I, and I know this sounds harsh, but I could give a shit if you like me or don't. I know I'm not everyone's cup of tea. I am a strong cup of coffee and it's best that the people around me realize that. For the coffee lovers I can be exactly what you need; I can be a little bitter and somewhat of a jolt. But I won't ever be tea, I'll always be coffee and it's just best that the tea lovers realize that and move along to a different cup. 

I am who I am. 

It's nice to be liked, but I am past the point of trying to fit in to make it happen. 

Corrie is probably at this point now. This was about 15 years ago and that sort of Fuck 'em if they don't like me, attitude tends to come with age for most people. Some of us it comes earlier, but it almost always comes for everyone eventually.

So why did getting blocked make me think of that drive into Toronto? 

Because I decided that they blocked me because we have so many mutual friends it would be awful for them to see me making hilarious comments on those posts and know that I don't speak to them anymore. It would be too painful to them to realize that they fucked up having me in their life so they have to pretend I don't exist anymore. It's really the only thing that makes sense. 

Because I'm fucking hilarious and to miss that...well that would be a real shame. 

Tea drinkers, am I right?